December 8, 2020. I had an accident at work and got a concussion. I was discharged from the hospital a couple of hours later not knowing the true severity of the concussion. I was home for two days and could barely stand up. I wasn’t given anything for the pain and over the counter stuff didn’t do any difference. I was anyway so nauseous so I couldn’t eat, only take a few sips of water. To think about getting any pills down my throat was impossible.
I crawled around my house. Grateful that I have a big dog to support me on as well as sturdy walls because my head was banging and the world was spinning worse than Six Flags ever could achieve. Two days later I laid down on my couch. Had the phone on the other side of the room charging. Have in mind, at this point I had not been able to eat a solid meal since Monday night (the accident happened at 4am Tuesday morning) and not been able to get my meds accordingly. The phone rang and I stood up much too fast. And down I went as fast as I stood up.
The caller (work) had to call for an ambulance and they transported me to Athens. Half way to Athens my heart decided to live it’s own life and be tachycardic. The medic wanted to cardiovert me, so thankful that she didn’t. If you didn’t know, to wake up with two pads applied to your chest is one of the most scary thing you can ever go through. You see your life go pass by very fast. I’ve been there before, been shocked, done CPR. Even though I wasn’t shocked I knew what pain in endures.
At the hospital my heart continued to go in and out of SVT. The nurses ran in and out of my room to see if I was okay almost every five minute. But they got the incident on strips.
I was transferred to my cardiologist at Mother Frances in Tyler. The following morning a stress test of my heart was done that came back normal. But… the doctor restricted me from driving an ambulance. Therefore I have been on light duty for the last couple of weeks. I am so grateful to our HR whom has let me be on light duty because of the circumstances. It was the accident that triggered the tachycardia. The same thing happened when I was 19. I was kicked by a horse and my heart went into A-fib.

Tomorrow is my re-visit with the cardiologist. I am honestly super freaking scared. I pray that he will let me go back to normal duty. But… I honestly don’t know if he will. He can force me to leave EMS for good. If he thinks that my situation is so tricky he can restrict me from driving all together. For the rest of my life. I need all prayers and good vibes I can get. I feel good. I feel strong. I want to go back to normal and work on the truck. I love my job! These weeks has really made me realize how much I love it. What am I going to do if I am never allowed to drive anything anymore?

The last two weeks has been extremely rough for me mentally. As you probably can figure out, this has been on my mind almost every minute. So many “what if’s…”. I usually don’t have anxiety but I can absolutely sit here and admit that this last couple of weeks has been filled by more anxiety than I’ve had in my life previously.

So please… keep me in your prayers that I will be let back to full duty tomorrow. That is all that I want and wish for. So I can go back to living my life by helping others!