Last of March… it’s hard to believe. This month has just passed by quicker than any other month I think. Haven’t had the time to update as much here. Focusing on my other website www.ceciliawichmann.com as that is my “official” face outwards. This is more of a personal blog I guess… I don’t know anymore. Realized that I haven’t done a post here for two darn weeks… Life has just gone into some kind of high gear. I don’t have time to live anymore it feels like. I hate it.

Harlequin Tea had a really good month. Harlequin Podcast released two episodes of Expat Life and two of Small Business Podcast. All of them very inspirational. I think I am the one getting the most inspiration and encouragement from talking to these people. I did a recording for Expat Life last week when my guest just pinpointed all the feelings I am feeling right now. I have grown out of East Texas. I have been here 15 years. I need something different. I have my mind set on Florida. Preferably Ocala area because there is where the horse mecca is. I want to meet new people, see a different scenery, go back to work full time with horses. But right now there are no way I can make it happen financially. But I have a goal. I will achieve it. Last year around this time I wrote down my goals and it was actually on there on my 5 year plan. I have 4 years left to make it happen. Absolutely not impossible.

While trying to keep all my social media accounts alive and moving I’ve looked at pictures of myself. I haven’t been wearing makeup for a while. It itches sometimes and irritates my eyes. But crap am I ugly without it. Seriously. I look so sick without it. I haven’t been feeling well for a couple of weeks now and the selfies really reveals that. Constant headache, sometimes chest pain, muscle aches, weight gain etc. I can’t go to the doctor right now. Not my fault. My PCP, Dr. Rich decided to leave the practice and start his own. That’s awesome. But my insurance did not approve. I got a letter in the mail that they had changed PCP to someone I have never heard the name of. He is probably really good but my situation is quite complex and Dr. Rich is absolutely awesome and I want to keep going to him. Trying to change PCP back to Dr. Rich will take a little time until he has gotten all paperwork with Blue Cross Blue Shield together. He says he is going to accept them, and I believe they all have to figure that out and then it will be good to go.
Anyway… pictures… gradually these last couple of weeks I have realized looking at them that I have to get my sh*t together and start putting effort into my appearance again.

It was when I took this picture right before I was going to do a podcast recording that I said to myself, April 1st is not going to be an april fools joke this year. So my goal for April is:

• Put effort into my appearance when I am at events such as networking events, meetings, showing houses etc. I am not going to wear makeup while on the ambulance as that is a 24 hour shift and it’s just not working out anyway… I may not wear it on events as I get quite hot during set up and tear down… that is quite a workout…
• Work out more. I need to lose weight. Period. At least I need to stop the weight gain I am having right now. I am swollen like an elephant some days. I walk the dogs but it’s simply not enough. Eat less, workout more. Whatever that consists of… my goal is to do 10,000 steps every day I am not on the ambulance.

I made an investment for the business… a heat press. First and foremost because I want to create my own merchandise for Harlequin Tea, as well as my own logo. Both the heat press and the vinyl transfers I ordered came yesterday. I went to Dollar General and got me two t-shirts to try on… I absolutely love this!

But this also opens some other “changes” to my life. I know I don’t dress very well… I most of the times wears my EMS pants with different shirts on with my logo. Easy, simple. Don’t have to think about what to wear but having my own “uniform”. But with this little investment, I will be able to print my own logo’s on my clothes which means I can do different shirts, t-shirts, jackets etc. My plan is to buy a couple of slacks/pants, some shirts that I print the logos on and then look more business professional than I do now. Simply get my business attire together. Was it Marcus Zuckerberg who always wore a grey t-shirt because it was easy? About the same idea but with my promo on there. And now I can create clothes with both Harlequin Tea and my own logo on… as I want it.

When it comes to Harlequin Tea Merchandise, I’m planning of printing both t-shirts, sweatshirts, hoodies, and more with the logo and also with some tea related memes on. It wouldn’t surprise me if it will be some kind of business out of this considering all the ideas I have in my head. EMS t-shirts, Swedish T-shirts, Dalmatian and Great Dane T-shirts… list is looooong. But it’s not on the priority list for now.

Well well… tomorrow is the day of change. I can do it. It will be all good. Just need to push myself and make it happen! I will try to update weekly next month at least with an progress update… even though I know there ain’t anyone reading this, it makes me accountable for myself… and I will be able to go back and see and inspire myself (hopefully).