I wrote a blog post yesterday that I never published. I was sad. Something happened that made me feel very ignored, useless, worthless and unwanted. The post I wrote didn’t get across the message I wanted so I didn’t publish it. I went to bed instead. The post will never be published.

Slept 10 hours and woke up much stronger. Started the day working on a project I will reveal in a couple of weeks. I’ve been working on it for a while but havent told anyone except the vendors of the project. I know that my projects doesn’t mean anything for anyone else, no one cares what I do but I am a driven person and loves to try new things. If you don’t try, you won’t succeed at all.

I took up my photography again last year. Glad I did. On Monday night I snapped one of the best pictures I think I’ve ever taken. I have also gotten so many nice comments about it which surprised me. People usually don’t comments on my stuff. But I am really proud of this picture. It reminded me that I am actually good at something.

Cuddles the cat is sitting watching Amaria and Dallas eating (Acriz is just outside the picture) and the storm is just about to roll in. I am most likely going to print this one and hang on the wall.

So I came to the conclusion… after only 45 people have listened to The Winner Takes It All, I will not record any more covers. I am simply not good enough to be recording since people doesn’t like it anyway. I will continue sing the National Anthem if asked because I know I can nail that one over and over again. If I record something again it will be a song never released before.
I am not going to socially engage myself on my time off. I will be like an eremite, only coming out when I have to work or need to. The secret project will make me come out now and then but that won’t be the same. But if you want me, you will have to tell me. Otherwise, I’ll be with my animals and my camera.
I won’t update my private facebook profiles of every step I’m taking or my opinions, or pictures of the dogs and horses. No one wants to see that anyway. I will keep my pages going, the animals instagram going and the blogs of course. So if you are interested and want to know how I am doing, this is where to find it.

I think it will make me happier to distance myself from the world. I get that I am too much for a lot of people, loud and annoying. And if I’m not there, you can’t ignore me or hurt me. You can still come up with all shitty rumors about me but that is out of my control.

So don’t worry about me, I’m fine. Living in my own little bubble where you are welcome to visit if you care. It’s okay if you don’t. But don’t expect me to visit you either then.