Yes, yesterday was my birthday. If you didn’t know or you just forgot, please don’t wish me happy belated birthday… It’s okay, it’s not my birthday anymore. You’ll have a chance in another 364 days! Don’t remind me about being forgotten please… The truth is; Social Media is making people lazy to not write down people’s birthdays and anniversaries. It’s not until you see it there you remember it. Right…

No, I don’t have it publicly on social media when my birthday is. And I don’t scream that it is my birthday anymore. But I have given a lot of hints and heads up for months prior on the 21st of several months but no one picked it up or cared… I don’t know which. And if you follow me on Instagram there was a couple of posts where I told it was my birthday. And it was extremely clear on Twitter… And honestly, I think it’s sad that if something is not on Facebook, it doesn’t exist or it didn’t happen… so I guess I didn’t have a birthday after all then? *lol*

I removed my birthday from social media several years ago after experiencing years of people either straight up ignored my birthday or was rude about it. I invited to parties and nobody came. People trying to make me feel better when they forgot my day with buying a cake over a week later. So I felt like it was better that people didn’t know and I celebrate it by myself. I am honestly scared to be that burned and disappointed again. It also makes it more sincere when someone do remember my birthday on the correct day.
When you have a birthday so close to Christmas, yet not on Christmas, everyone is so busy getting ready for the holidays they don’t give a crap about anyone’s birthday. And when you don’t have a family that reminds people around them about the day coming up; it’s simply forgotten. But a couple of people knew and remembered. I had some text messages and facebook posts with love! So if you did know and said happy birthday; THANK YOU!!! It absolutely made my day!

Yesterday was also a little different since I had the release of The Winner Takes It All. I spent most of the day trying to promote it as much as I could online. But the same as saying Happy Birthday; only three people told me that they liked the song. Don’t know if other didn’t like it and didn’t want to hurt my feelings or they just didn’t care to listen to it… it takes a couple of days for the stats to come through so I won’t know for a while… It feels a little like I’m standing all alone in a mazefield trying to get out.

Well, I had decided that I was going to make yesterday a good birthday. I have some traditions that I try to keep, and since I was off I was able to actually do them.
Started the morning with making French Toast. When my grandfather was alive he always made it for me for breakfast, birthday or not birthday. It was delicious!

I headed to the barn and fed the girls. It went faster than I anticipated it to do which was nice. They have their round bale of hay but the quality ain’t that good so I try to feed them square bale twice a day when I’m off work and then when I get there after work. You can tell they like the square bale hay much better as well.
Stopped by Brookshire’s on my way home to get some groceries. As tradition say; mom and I always ate a steak with baked potato, and sauteed mushrooms at any occasion to celebrate. That was our to go food so to say.

Needless to say, it was delicious! The dogs, Twix especially, was worried that they wouldn’t get a taste but I can assure you, they did get a piece of the steak!

Then I also got me some bananas and chocolate… is there anything better than chocolate covered fruit? I just love it!!!

Took a walk with the dogs. They needed it so bad. I feel bad that I haven’t done it for about a week but I wasn’t feeling well Friday or Saturday when I was off and then I performed on Sunday. But I got dressed and headed out with them so they were two happy boys.

So in the end, I had a good birthday without any excitement and alone. The people I met was nice to me and the animals behaved… now a year older and nothing has changed… age is just a number on a piece of paper. But I truly hope that one day I will be able to celebrate it with a party again… not sure I dare hosting one though… we’ll see…