I had a hell of a day yesterday. Knew it was cold when I left the house but thought it would be warmer throughout the day. Little did I know that I was also going to work with someone who insisted of having the window open and the cold air on all day long (not my regular partner…). No, I was not happy, nor was I feeling good…

I said something the first time he opened the window but he just ignored my request. As soon as we had a patient and he was in the back, I put the heat on a little bit, not a lot just to thaw. But when he came back the window was rolled down and the AC back to cold. On top of all this, I had forgotten that my jacket was in the house. I thought it was in the car and when I came to work and looked for it I couldn’t find it. Thankfully I had my blanket that did a lot of good but not enough. It got a little bit warmer in the afternoon but at that point it was too late. The headache and pain was already there. A coworker offered to try to hunt us down so I could borrow his jacket but we were moving all over the place and I just couldn’t have him do that. When I came home I saw that another coworker also offered her jacket. So kind!
I am so glad I actually remained on my feet the last two calls. I was so dizzy and had a headache from hell. Pumped with vasoconstrictor medication to keep my blood pressure higher than normal so it wouldn’t drop and Excedrin to to try to beat the headache.

I don’t know what to do. I try to be nice and understand that people are not as cold as me but where is the limit? When am my condition respected? I could have put down my foot harder but do I have the right to? I am always taught that my health is my problem and my problem only. If my grandparents knew how much I actually talk about my health, there would be some consequences for it. I was grown up with the mindset of keeping it to myself. So to even ask once to close the window was to stand up for myself.

I also heard the other day that me being so cold is all in my brain and I do it for attention. My body ain’t that cold in reality… I don’t really know what to answer that… I have nothing. I so wish that was the truth because being this cold is not any damn fun. Not being able to trust your body because it is cold is not fun!

Woke up this morning with a headache. It was expected. But some meds and excedrin actually took most of it away thankfully. Now when it is cold I have to head to the barn twice a day to give the horses hay. I still haven’t found anyone to help me get one or two round bales of hay to them. Well I had one and then it rained so we couldn’t and after that his truck broke down so it all fell through. Then the ground has been too soft… just one thing after another.
Anyway, off to the barn it was this morning to take care of the three girls. Well now I could at least dress for the weather!!!

Four layers on top and two layers on the bottom whereas one of them were ski pants. I can tell you, I was only cold on my hands when the wind blew. Other than that it was almost sweaty! It felt really good to get some barn work in the body and just move around this early in the morning.

It was quite funny. I probably woke them up when I came this early (7:30 am) because they came from a different direction and I should have seen them when I came in. So I think they were laying down. Dallas… hahahaha… she is a morning bitch! She was not happy this morning. She behaved just like when the farrier was out the other day. Do NOT wake her up… can horses have coffee? If so she needs some in the mornings! She was jumping around and being totally stupid when I was grooming her sisters. I have no clue why, just wanted out! Then when they got out, everything was just fine!

I’m off this weekend. Performance in Dallas on Sunday. But today and tomorrow is just relaxed days. Try to stay indoors as much as I possibly can. Maybe dress in layers again and take the dogs for a walk because they are so freaking bored. Especially Twix. He doesn’t know what to do with himself! I am not really willing to take any risks and pass out on a walk… so we’ll see… I will probably end up sitting in front of the computer all weekend long doing all kinds of stuff!