I was driving down the road on my way to my annual mammogram when it suddenly dawned on me something that made me a little confused.

I have to do a mammogram every year since I am over 40 years old. This is the second year I do this. It’s not a big deal but everyone is always so hyped about it. They sent two messages reminding me about the appointment and they called yesterday to make sure I would remember to be there.
Last time they thought they found something and they sent me off to do a second, more thorough exam where it turned out that it was a water bubble, nothing to worry about.

After my first cardiac arrest, in September 2017, they did a MRI and CT of my head. On that MRI they found three ”abnormalities” but they didn’t think it was related to the event. These findings did not show up on the CT. They told me to have a check up yearly on this for the next five years to make sure nothing changed. They said this since they didn’t have anything to compare with prior.
Another MRI was done a couple of weeks after my pacemaker placement and nothing had changed from the first scan. I left with the words to check it up in a year. Well it was hard to get it done since I didn’t have any insurance.
When I started my job and got insurance I also got a PCP. I mentioned this to him, at the time it was now almost 3 years since the last MRI was done. He did not think it was necessary to do a scan since I have had CT’s done recently. I have mentioned it later and got the same answer. I don’t know what exactly the difference is that makes something show up on a MRI and not a CT.

Back in the fall of last year I had a fall at work… same ole shit but a coworker saw me slam my head in the concrete. They took me to the hospital and all that was done was bloodwork and I got a pill for the dizziness. Despite having blood in my hair from a very small laceration a CT was not done. At the time I was surprised about it but… hey it’s me I shouldn’t expect anything else. Weeks with headaches followed and I guess I got used to it.
Then we had the event last week. For a couple of days I had a little bump on the side of my hair from hitting it either in the car or on the ground. Thankfully covered by my hair. But despite stating to the doctor that I had hit my head, was dizzy and nauseated a CT was not done.

So what I can conclude from this… apparently my boobs are more important to doctors than my brain. I have no pain or complaints about my boobs and have never had. But those I have to check out yearly. I have several complaints that could be connected to something that has been found several years ago but that is not worthy a follow up. It has gone so far that doctors doesn’t even think I am worthy a CT after I have a trauma to my head. To me that is a little disturbing.

What if… I don’t think it will happen, but… if we paint the devil on the wall (Swedish expression if you haven’t heard it before), next time a CT is done and they find something… how will they determine how long time it’s been there. Did it happen already in August of last year and they missed it because they didn’t do the CT?
What if I one day get a MRI and they realize that those three ”abnormalities” have changed and maybe has something to do with my symptoms… could episodes have been prevented? I don’t think that will ever happen but understandably, my thoughts are spinning as I will never get answers of my questions. And needless to say, I don’t think it is right or fair that my boobs are more important than something that is essential for my existence… my brain. It feels like doctors doesn’t take my complaints or me seriously at all anymore…