You would think that for a person like me, having a syncope syndrome and cardiac problems, would be used to passing out and should recover pretty fast from an episode. But that is not always the case.
Yes, I wake up, I get home in one way or the other, life goes on… but does it really? Every time I have an episode is different from the last. It can be pain at different places, the amount of time I am out, what did I do when it happened or did I even have to go to the hospital? One thing that is the same every time is if or when I have to return to the location where I collapsed. I am always quite anxious and nervous about it. I don’t know why and specially if it has happened in a public setting with a lot of people I know around. It is very embarrassing. I once passed out in a Walmart and was taken to the hospital, ended up in ICU for five days. It took me months before I could brave myself to go in to that Walmart again. Once I’ve been back once, it’s all good. It is just an obstacle that I have to mentally get over, it is not going to happen again!

It took me a week this time. Somewhere on this road was where I passed out last week. To come over this obstacle today I actually brought the dogs. That is one of the things I am super nervous about, that I pass out while walking the dogs because BamBam does not trust anyone. But it went great.

When their walk was done I faced my second obstacle of the day. Walk my 5 mile route. It is all about trusting my body. I don’t. Especially not after an episode. 5 miles is quite far as well. I had taken a 3 mile walk on Saturday so I had a good feeling from that in my mind. I always take the same route. That has turned out to be a good choice, just in case I go down. Both PD and FD in town know me and my condition and they know where I live and in case they have to, they can go and check the house.
I had decided that I would not push it at all. My goal was just to make it around the route, even if it took unusually long time. But it didn’t.

Absolutely not the best time ever but I got a really good feeling out of it. I could feel that my legs was not really on top of it but they will remember the workout soon.

It felt good to have conquered these two obstacles but I still had one left. Well it wasn’t really an obstacle and I wasn’t really nervous about it either but it was time to head to Tyler for a recheck at the cardiologist office.

This visit was actually scheduled since a month ago when I was there and got my medications changed. They, of course, had no clue about what happened last week. So this visit took a little bit longer than it should since I had to explain and tell everything… Well, the new meds works well, and that is awesome. I have to admit that I was against them from the beginning but once I got used to the side effects (that are now resolved) it has made a good change. Since the last episode happened while exercising and it seems like that is when I have most of my problems a stress test of my heart will be scheduled as well in the near future. It has been done a couple of years ago but it is probably time to do another one again.

Hopefully it will take a long time until next episode. It feels good to be back with my work out and I will absolutely try to keep it up as much as I can this month. I have to do a lot of overtime hours the next weeks after realizing that I have some extra bills to cover so we will see how much time there will be left.