I collected myself and started on a task that will take some time to complete but it has to be done. Clean out mom’s stuff. Mom was a squirrel! She saved and collected everything. She just could not throw away things and especially not clothes. So I have a lot of things to go through. She used one of the bedroom in the house to a storage and that’s the room that I started to dig into. I want to make that room into my office eventually. But since it is a lot of things to move around and make decisions about and mom had a tendency to hide things in pockets and awkward places I have to go through everything very thoroughly. In between a bunch of old unopened envelopes I found this beautiful picture from when mom was young for example…

I don’t know how old mom was in this picture, I have asked a friend of hers but not gotten an answer yet. But wasn’t mom a hot chick when she was young? I bet she had men running after her all the time. She stated though that she was single most of the time because she was an air-stewardess and out flying all the time.

I also found this picture from 2002 or 2003, taken at our farm in Vetlanda, Sweden

She is sitting on her huge porch with her soulmate Razmus. He was a Saint Bernard/Labrador mix. One of the smartest and most funny dogs I’ve ever had. I can tell you stories about this boy for a long time. And I think that everyone who ever met him will agree with me that he was just one big love boy!

It breaks my heart that my family has never valued the importance of taking photos really. I don’t have many pictures of my mom, grandma or grandpa. Both mom and I loved photography but not being in the picture. Today, no one wants to take my picture so the only thing I have is boring selfies but it doesn’t matter since I don’t have any kids or family anyway. I wish I would have known back then what void it is to not have any pictures of them and I would’ve made sure I had more photos to look back at and remember the good times.
All the pictures I found now will be framed and put on the wall very carefully.