Today is two months since mom passed away. It’s really been a roller coaster! One day is perfectly fine and the next miserable. One hour can be perfect and then something reminds me of mom and tears are coming again. But over all I am getting used to the situation. As I have said previous, I thought I was prepared but I was wrong… so so wrong. But mom and I lived together for almost 35 years in total, we moved around the world and I have been her caretaker for the last 2 years. So even though she was in Tyler her last two weeks of her life, I was there on my off time. And now she is gone and I am all alone.

I try to honor mom in some way every day. I know she is sitting in heaven watching me and smiling. She is proud of me. But in the same time there are so many situations where I wish she was here. The other day I cooked some food and it turned out really awesome. I know mom would have loved it. But she wasn’t here to taste it. That was hard. There will be so many more of these moments, and it is just to push through them, cry if needed and remember the good times with mom! It was an honor to have her as my mom!